life is weird.at times we stand at a juncture where there is just no way to go.....where our strife with the right and the wrong just comes to an end...here there is no one with u..u are with urself.trying to find answers of the unknown...fighting with everything but in vain...
i am just there.....i lost someone very close to me just a few hours bk....dunno where he is gone....he is lost, nowhere to be found..and what can i do??
well nothing...u know at times life just stares at us straight into our eyes and tells us "this is what i have done....can u do a bit to undo it"..and we stand there like dumb masters of ourselves...hands tied...
u see these are the times in life when the great human creation is down on its knees...we the very core of it feeling the brunt
i dunno how to console myself....still laughing still smiling away ...well livin in disbelief tryin to make this unreal..but someday i know the battle will be lost...dreading that day i live on with dunno what..tryin to find what i what to find..
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
STUCK IN A MOMENT........
well yeah the title is a famous U2 song from the 90's but is a very apt phrase or whatever you say....In my 21 long years of living this small little piece of english has caught hold of my senses more than a hundred times.Isnt it true that many a times we tend to go back in the past...a past which was very beautiful but now has no exsistance?? happens with me everyday i guess but as they say whats gone is gone....so true are they...so why do we get stuck at a place which has no real value in our lives?? actually if we could really decide the value of what ever happens with us then probably our self valuation of life would have been better...but so it is not!!
we keep wishing about the past in vain!
so how does this bear fruit for us??well i guess its general human tendancy to go back and think about something in the past which one misses or which one dosen't posses in the present...
so now you will tell me that we should leave the past behind..k accepted but it just dosent let go so very easily..some way or the other it will crawl its way intous and we have no other option but to face it...
we try but our empty past just dosent let go...i tell my past that i was and now i am but no one remains to listen to me..
we keep wishing about the past in vain!
so how does this bear fruit for us??well i guess its general human tendancy to go back and think about something in the past which one misses or which one dosen't posses in the present...
so now you will tell me that we should leave the past behind..k accepted but it just dosent let go so very easily..some way or the other it will crawl its way intous and we have no other option but to face it...
we try but our empty past just dosent let go...i tell my past that i was and now i am but no one remains to listen to me..
Saturday, January 31, 2009
THE FUTURE...WELCOMED OR NOT!!!
Why is it that we welcome progress but fear the future? Advancements in technology are looked forward to eagerly, new gadgets are drooled over,
and we live in a state of continuous thrall waiting for the next big thing. As an economy, we are focused on growth and we measure this progress with an enormous amount of seriousness and whenever the pace slackens as we are seeing right now, there is much heartburn and breast-beating.
And yet, when we are asked to imagine the fruits of our labour by looking ahead and visualizing the future, the most common response is to see it in dark and somewhat forbidding terms. Science fiction representations of the future tend to follow a dystopian trajectory, Matrix and Dark Knight being good examples of this trend.
Visually, we see the future in dark and metallic hues; futuristic design is angular and unfamiliar, deriving its inspiration from a bratty incompliance with the present rather than a genuine reading of the future. Politically, we fear what the future will bring in terms of surveillance and control, a theme we visit again and again in popular culture all the way from 1984 to Minority Report to the mandal commission. It is as if the future is in some ways a denial of the present, and exists in our imagination as smthin which cautions us..
Of course, there are enough reasons to fear for our future. Global warming, terrorism, nuclear warfare, worldwide epidemics - the list is worryingly long and scarily plausible. But then, there are enough reasons for optimism - advances in medicine post the Genome project, ever increasing abilities to process information, the exciting promise of nanotechnology to name just a few. The issue seems to be a more fundamental one. It is as if we are somehow compelled to act in the present out of hope and imagine the future out of anxiety. We use the vocabulary of more-better-faster right now but somehow the place it takes us to is cold and scary.
Perhaps our imagined future is an accelerated magnification of our feeling of anxiety about today. The future becomes a vantage point from which we can critique our present with much greater clarity. It allows us to rise above our concern with ourselves and see the future from a neutral vantage point.
From this perch, we can se the larger themes that dominate our world more vividly. We worry less about what progress means for us as individuals today and look at what it means for us, as a collective over a period of time. Of course, since there can be no neutral vantage point, and the only terms of reference we have are rooted in the past, we can only imagine the future in terms of our past, most often as the opposite of what we see as our past.
It is interesting how the past or the idea of the past which is really all that it ends up being in our mind gets so easily spread with nostalgia. We look upon the many inadequacies of the past with fondness and consume a reprised version in the form of things retro while the future remains a place where people forego humanness in exchange for technological stuff. We fear that we will inhabit a world of mechanical perfection which will leave no room for human imperfection.
Seen from the perspective of an individual the past is a pleasant conspiracy that results in her being born while the future is what happens to the world when she dies. Could our imagination of the future be an articulation of our anxiety about our gradual erasure from this world? For after our passing we distribute our selves in a maze of descendants; in that sense we cannot feel the sense of continuity we do when we retrace our past when we imagine the future. The past converges to a single source - we can locate our origins while the future vanishes in a dispersed, diffused spray.
Or perhaps, our anxiety about the future comes simply from our inability to know it or be there when it happens. We can know the past or at least construct a model of some kind about it based on some evidence. We can loom over the past armed with knowledge and transient existence. The future dwarfs us by its enigmatic persistence. It leaves us bereft - all our knowledge, our accomplishments, our progress mean very little when cast against the awesome infinitude of the future.
We are dissolved in our own future while the universe is a thing to our past. A famous writer famously wrote that its not that I am afraid of dying, it's just that I don't want to be there when it happens. It appears that we might well be afraid of the future precisely because we won't be there when it happens!
and we live in a state of continuous thrall waiting for the next big thing. As an economy, we are focused on growth and we measure this progress with an enormous amount of seriousness and whenever the pace slackens as we are seeing right now, there is much heartburn and breast-beating.
And yet, when we are asked to imagine the fruits of our labour by looking ahead and visualizing the future, the most common response is to see it in dark and somewhat forbidding terms. Science fiction representations of the future tend to follow a dystopian trajectory, Matrix and Dark Knight being good examples of this trend.
Visually, we see the future in dark and metallic hues; futuristic design is angular and unfamiliar, deriving its inspiration from a bratty incompliance with the present rather than a genuine reading of the future. Politically, we fear what the future will bring in terms of surveillance and control, a theme we visit again and again in popular culture all the way from 1984 to Minority Report to the mandal commission. It is as if the future is in some ways a denial of the present, and exists in our imagination as smthin which cautions us..
Of course, there are enough reasons to fear for our future. Global warming, terrorism, nuclear warfare, worldwide epidemics - the list is worryingly long and scarily plausible. But then, there are enough reasons for optimism - advances in medicine post the Genome project, ever increasing abilities to process information, the exciting promise of nanotechnology to name just a few. The issue seems to be a more fundamental one. It is as if we are somehow compelled to act in the present out of hope and imagine the future out of anxiety. We use the vocabulary of more-better-faster right now but somehow the place it takes us to is cold and scary.
Perhaps our imagined future is an accelerated magnification of our feeling of anxiety about today. The future becomes a vantage point from which we can critique our present with much greater clarity. It allows us to rise above our concern with ourselves and see the future from a neutral vantage point.
From this perch, we can se the larger themes that dominate our world more vividly. We worry less about what progress means for us as individuals today and look at what it means for us, as a collective over a period of time. Of course, since there can be no neutral vantage point, and the only terms of reference we have are rooted in the past, we can only imagine the future in terms of our past, most often as the opposite of what we see as our past.
It is interesting how the past or the idea of the past which is really all that it ends up being in our mind gets so easily spread with nostalgia. We look upon the many inadequacies of the past with fondness and consume a reprised version in the form of things retro while the future remains a place where people forego humanness in exchange for technological stuff. We fear that we will inhabit a world of mechanical perfection which will leave no room for human imperfection.
Seen from the perspective of an individual the past is a pleasant conspiracy that results in her being born while the future is what happens to the world when she dies. Could our imagination of the future be an articulation of our anxiety about our gradual erasure from this world? For after our passing we distribute our selves in a maze of descendants; in that sense we cannot feel the sense of continuity we do when we retrace our past when we imagine the future. The past converges to a single source - we can locate our origins while the future vanishes in a dispersed, diffused spray.
Or perhaps, our anxiety about the future comes simply from our inability to know it or be there when it happens. We can know the past or at least construct a model of some kind about it based on some evidence. We can loom over the past armed with knowledge and transient existence. The future dwarfs us by its enigmatic persistence. It leaves us bereft - all our knowledge, our accomplishments, our progress mean very little when cast against the awesome infinitude of the future.
We are dissolved in our own future while the universe is a thing to our past. A famous writer famously wrote that its not that I am afraid of dying, it's just that I don't want to be there when it happens. It appears that we might well be afraid of the future precisely because we won't be there when it happens!
india and slums...the love hate story...
INDIA ,THE COUNTRY OF DREAMS FOR MORE THAN ONE BILLION PEOPLE RIDING ON THE WAVE OF DEVELOPMENT.THE SO CALLED FASTEST GROWING ECONOMY NEXT ONLY TO CHINA IS THE SUPERPOWER ON MANY COUNTS BUT STILL IF YOU ASK A COMMONER IN THE WEST ONE PICTURE WHICH COMES TO HIS OR HER MIND FOR SURE IS THE POVERTY STRICKEN FACE OF INDIANS.A BIG QUESTION STILL REMAINS UNANSWERED AS TO WHETHER FOR THE WEST INDIA IS INTERESTING BECAUSE IT IS POOR??
INDIA STILL REMAINS STEREOTYPED BY THE WEST.TAKE AWAY SPIRITUALITY AND POVERTY,INDIA TO THE OUTSIDE EYE IS JUST A LARGE COUNTRY WITH DIVERSE TOPOGRAPHY ISNT IT?? OK FINE SOME SILICON VALLEY ENTREPRENAURS HAVE MADE IT BIG OVER THERE BUT STILL THE MAJORITY RELATE TO INDIA AS A LAND OF SNAKE CHARMERS AND SLUMS!!!
SO DOES OUR COUNTRY GET IDENTIFIED JUST BY THIS??? THERE REMAINS A BIG QUESTION MARK AND I GUESS I AM NOT THE COMPETANT AUTHORITY TO COMMENT UPON IT.SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT THE WAY THE WEST PERCEIVES OUR COUNTRY HAS TO DO A LOT WITH THE CINEMATIC REPRESENTATIONS WHICH THE US MOVIE INDUSTRY COMES OUT WITH.LIKE YOU CANT SHOW BRAZIL WITOUT THE CARNIVAL OR RUSSIAA WITHOUT KGB OR FOR THAT MATTER A HUGH GRANT SYMBOLISES THE UK! WHAT IS GENERALLY POTRAIED IS GENERALLY THE DARKER PICTURE.THERE IS ALWAYS A BRIGHT SIDE TO EVERYTHING AS THEY SAY BUT IN THIS CASE FINDING IS ONE TOUGH JOB!! SO IS IT REALLY THERE????
YES OFCOURSE ITS THERE!!! THE SLUMS OF BOMBAY GIVE A COMPLETE NEW MEANING TO LIFE ITSELF.ON THE FACES OF THE PEOPLE WE FIND AMBITION THAT NEVER LOOSES ITS WAY AND JOY WHICH COMES KNOWING IN REALITY WHAT IS TRULY PRECIOUS IN LIFE!!!THE PEOPLE OVER THERE GIVE US A SENSE OF FEELING THAT WE ARE LIVING A LIFE WHICH IN REALITY IS MILES ADRIFT FROM REALITY!! AN AURA OF FICTITIOUS THOUGHTS SURROUND OUR MINDS.PEOPLE THERE SEE HOPE OVER THE HORIZON EVERY MORNING WHERE WE FAIL TO TRACE ANYTHING!!AM NOT SAYING THAT THIS WAY OF LIFE IS SOMETHING TO BE FOLLOWED UPON BUT YEAH IT HAS ITS OWN SHADES OF GOODS.
BUT YEAH WE DO THINK ABOUT IT ONLY WHEN ITS TALKED OVER ON THE SILVER SCREEN.FOR A MATTER OF FACT I MYSELF WOULD NOT HAVE WRITTEN THIS IF IT HADNT BEEN FOR THE MOVIE ‘SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE’ GOING GREAT GUNS.AN OSCAR IN THE POCKET??WELL HOW DOES IT HELP ME OR THE SLUMS OF BOMBAY??LIFE STILL REMAINS THE SAME OVER HERE AND WILL I GUESS FOR SOME TIME TO COME. MANY MORE MILLIONAIRES WOULD BE CARVED OUT OF THIS AND THE REAL ONE WOULD NOT GET THEIR SHARE OF THE PIE.SO IT HAS BEEN.....
WE ALWAYS TALK ABOUT THE OTHER INDIA BUT THIS IS NOT PRECISELY WHAT WE MEAN BY THAT.THE SLUMS ARE NOT AN ABERRATION BUT IT IS A CONDEMNATION AND A CELEBRATION OF WHO AND WHAT WE ARE.WE OWN IT SO WE SHOULD ADMIRE IT AND SHOULD STRIVE TO CHANGE IT.
Monday, January 5, 2009
our future..in doldrums>>>>?
well friends the new year 2009 has dawned upon us.....bringin wid it a new ray of hope.
but for a few of us it brings wid it a sense a fright and fear..and feeling of uncertainty...the current economic recession is looming large over india inc....and its we the students who are facing the brunt....or are living in fear of facing it....
every morning the newspaper and the news channels are ful wid stories about the finances and the economy and we are talking inflation and CRR and what not!!!..the RBI has taken the forefront of all the activity goin on....
the government is tryin its level best...so lets see how the future shapes for the budding professionals of our country waitin to have their hands full....
Saturday, January 3, 2009
india awakens or does it not?????
wel 26/11 has gone down into the history books i guess......mumbai was shocked...so was india and the world.....and there was a big hue and cry about the security lapses and that the forces are ill equipped and security mechanism, is faulty....this has been the cry since i can remember reading it in newspapers whenever this kind of an attack happens.....but nothin has changed.....
we go off to sleep everyday cursin the government about its misgovernance and corrupt politicians..about policies goin wrong and decisions wrongly taken...but somewhere isnt it our responsibility as well ??
we are the first ones to shrug off any morale responsibilities which is on our shoulders....why??
at railway stations we are in a hurry...and the authorities checkin us is never taken in the right spirit.....we always to break the rules and then talk about rules......
it seems as if breakin rules helps us make our lives easier?? does it?? or does it not??? this question is to be answerd by the society....
we want effecient policing everywhere.....at every point...
a simple railway reservation que at the ticket booking office cant be a straight line because we are just not in the habit...yes but if a ciop comes and shows the stick everythin is in place....
why cant we do effecient policing by ourselves...
indians talk about their diverse culture ,unity in diversityand what not but 4 people cud gather the strenght and create havoc at a place where 4000 people were present...
where did our unity fade away???
think........
we go off to sleep everyday cursin the government about its misgovernance and corrupt politicians..about policies goin wrong and decisions wrongly taken...but somewhere isnt it our responsibility as well ??
we are the first ones to shrug off any morale responsibilities which is on our shoulders....why??
at railway stations we are in a hurry...and the authorities checkin us is never taken in the right spirit.....we always to break the rules and then talk about rules......
it seems as if breakin rules helps us make our lives easier?? does it?? or does it not??? this question is to be answerd by the society....
we want effecient policing everywhere.....at every point...
a simple railway reservation que at the ticket booking office cant be a straight line because we are just not in the habit...yes but if a ciop comes and shows the stick everythin is in place....
why cant we do effecient policing by ourselves...
indians talk about their diverse culture ,unity in diversityand what not but 4 people cud gather the strenght and create havoc at a place where 4000 people were present...
where did our unity fade away???
think........
the flip side of life>>>>>
here i am standin at a juncture where in life, starin straight into my face, is tellin me......you have failed....u are at the bottom of the rung.....you are in the hands of defeat....and this is scarin the shit out of me.....what do i do??? where do i go??? who would help me????
thats a question for which findin answers is becomin difficult.......
where does the answer lie?????
it lies with me i guess but so helpless i am that self introspection has become somethin very tough for me...
i am lying far away from myself....tryin to find myself but fallin short everytime...
that realisation stil not dawning upon my senses.......
the day it does there this pain ends....but till then i roam like an headless beast into the shadows of darkness....lookin for that gleam of light....
life in dire straits....
even the dark side of the moon sees the light in a quarter of a month..with that hope i gaze at the moon.....seemingly thinkin of that day when i see the flip side......
thats a question for which findin answers is becomin difficult.......
where does the answer lie?????
it lies with me i guess but so helpless i am that self introspection has become somethin very tough for me...
i am lying far away from myself....tryin to find myself but fallin short everytime...
that realisation stil not dawning upon my senses.......
the day it does there this pain ends....but till then i roam like an headless beast into the shadows of darkness....lookin for that gleam of light....
life in dire straits....
even the dark side of the moon sees the light in a quarter of a month..with that hope i gaze at the moon.....seemingly thinkin of that day when i see the flip side......
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